*achoo*

ugh I hate being sick. This has been one of the worst times too. The worst was when I actually threw up because I don't usually. The next was in January of this year and I couldn't really stand and now this time where I almost couldn't again, head pounding, stuffy nose.
*sniffle sniffle* ugh god why....I don't get it, how come I'm getting sick now?

Life update

Well apparently I've been busy and didn't know it. I went almost a whole month without one post to you guys!!! god forbid!! lol
Anyways let's see. . .
The new semester has started at my school, the classes I have are not bad at all. I was harassed in one of these classes but quickly got it taken care of (let you know more when I do)
Tomorrow I go down to my real home, the one I feel like I never should have left but I know I needed to. I'll be seeing the young brothers of mine, grandmother and my father. What? Yes my girl is going with me :)
I don't know why but I've felt so lonely recently, but with the day coming up I hope that seeing her will change that like it always does.
Well for now I do believe that is all I have to say so. . .
until something worthy has come up my friends.

Chained in the Snow

I feel chained to the wall (Hence the title). I'm stuck here at my place and I can't help the one I care about. She's getting taunted and yelled at because she didn't do anything yesterday, but I think she has a pretty good excuse which is not being able to feel her toes!!
*breathes* I'm stuck here in this place covered by snow (which I love snow) but right now it feels like a prison. A prison's cold bars and the food is not what you want. All I can do is be here for when she needs me. . .all I can do is sit and wait for the possibility of talking to her again soon. . .and the hopes my work can keep my lonely mind from straying to the fact I'm a solo prisoner in this hell of mine.

*Achoo*

Ugh I hate being sick. I get a headache, my nose starts running off my face. My throat goes dry and my cough sounds not even human at some points. It was really bad on Saturday, I mean bad enough I dropped a 7 and a half hour shift because I couldn't really crawl out of bed. The next day wasn't much better and I finally made it to the store for some medicine and beat it into submission.
Now I'm stuck with a slight cough and my nose stuffed up to my skull with phlegm. But I will not let it win. It may be the worst I'd felt in a while but I can't let it bother me.
Classes have started up again and I'm glad I'm feeling better at the start of them.
Now I just need my books and for someone to tell me what's going on with foodstamps!!!

Shattered

My girl was in an accident not that long ago. . .
She called me to tell me and now I can't stop shaking. I went down the hall to stay quiet and ended up against the wall. The next thing I knew I was on the floor and I couldn't breath, my heart feels like it will break my ribcage. I can only imagine what would have happened if something had gone wrong.
I don't want to think how lucky I am that she is alive and only a little banged up.
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My god I love her so much. . . Don't you dare take her from me.

:'(

If it wasn't for. . .

If it wasn't for friends?
I'd have gone crazy.
If it wasn't for family?
I'd not have shoulder's to cry on.
If it wasn't for pets?
I'd have no one to play with.
If it wasn't for my mother?
I'd not have an apartment.
If it wasn't for my father?
I'd not know the feeling of speed, or what it's like to build with my hands.
If it wasn't for my sister?
I don't think I would have read, I don't think I would be writing.
If it wasn't for. . .
If it wasn't for Her?
This life would be meaningless. . .
If it wasn't for Her I don't know how much shit I could take and now I never will have to find out.
Because of her?
I can take on the world and laugh as it tries to fight back.

. . .

I don't know what to say. Busy is busy and haven't had time to do much. My body seems to like to kick my ass and I don't know how to fix it. Doc says I just have "A very sensitive stomach" well when that includes waking up with pain for 3 days straight and diarrhea most of the time after eating very little then she's probably right.
*sigh*
All I can do is push forward and pray pray pray it all comes through eventually. Semester is almost over, just a bit longer.